T minus 16 and counting!

16 hours, 16 hours, 16 hours! I have been counting down for the past few days and I'm about to go nuts! I really hope this little one is not stubborn tomorrow morning and allows us to sneak a peak. Very unlikely because Mike, Zachary and I all three are very stubborn. We didn't have a problem when we found out Zachary was a little boy, he was playing with himself (I can't believe boys even do it in the womb!)

I haven't been 1/2 as moody as I was when I was pregnant with Zachary and I haven't been as hungry either. Maybe it's because I'm trying to be more aware of my eating and my actions this time. I'm not sure.

I'm scared to go in tomorrow with Mike and Zachary in the room and have the technician tell me there is something wrong. For that reason I might ask them to stand outside the door just for her to do a quick check to tell me it's alright and to hear the h/b and then ask her to let the boys in. I couldn't bear to have Zachary witness a Mommy meltdown if there would be bad news. I will be 19 weeks 3 days tomorrow and that is the exact age my cousin's triplets were when they were born prematurely. Because of that I almost called to reschedule for an earlier or later date. I told myself their situation was different, everything will be alright.

And speaking of my cousins, I feel helpless. I don't think I've done everything I could do to let them know how much I care about them and how much my heart breaks for their little girls in heaven. I sent emails and sent flowers and that's it. I honestly don't know what to do right now because I'm sitting here pregnant and I really doubt they want to hear from me. If I were in their situation I wouldn't want to. They are making their blog password protected and right now that's the only way I know how to reach out to them. It's none of my business what they do or how they do it, it's their lives and they need to do what they can in order to properly heal and to move on.

I'll make sure I post the BIG NEWS tomorrow when I get to work!